D Deficient in Current Events

My NP doctor is treating me for a protein deficiency which plays a role in absorption, duh, but the more I look into it, the more it looks like it is something far simpler. Zinc. There are the physical symptoms we discussed but we didn’t discuss my ADHD. It happens to worsen ADHD symptoms. Anxiety and depression as well. I was curious about testosterone levels as my semen volume is not what it used to be. That is zinc-related. Collagen production as well. Protein production too! I think zinc is why I am falling apart.

I have absorption issues because of the acid levels in my stomach which we are working on with HCL therapy. We discovered that I have food sensitivities to GMOs like wheat & corn. We had me quit canola and a plethora of other foods which made me lose 10 lbs of inflammation. English does not have the requisite words to explain the level of relief I felt when “the bloating” stopped. I’ll get a blood order to see what these levels are and go from there.

I looked into ways to increase absorption from my foods and it’s not too bad. I don’t chew my food enough, yes. I am going to start soaking my nuts and seeds. I am going to sprout some of them as well. Zinc competes for absorption so I have to space out my supplements.

My grocery bills have been so high. It gives me anxiety. This happened when I went vegan so this is something that will level out once I figure this new “diet” out. It’s sickening that we have to care about things like “organic” and “non-GMO.” Our food should just be safe. Europe does a better job at policing their food than we do here in the West. This is because of our free trade system with America. I looked up recipes to start making my own bread to help reduce the cost of my grocery bill. I looked into fermenting my own vegan cheese as well. I’d be more inclined to consume dairy again if it was raw and real. I’m not mentally there yet. I already make my own condiments. I’m not too far away from having a homestead and growing my own food, while it is legal.

There is a company that sells high-quality spring water that my NP doctor recommended months ago. I called them yesterday to see what their pricing was because they don’t have it listed on their website. The company is local to my province only. My NP doctor says he cannot find anyone better in the country. It is going to be expensive if I get it set up to be delivered but I am going to do it anyway.

I will reach out to my NP doctor next week and tell him that I will get a blood order from my mainstream doctor. I’ll see what else he would like me to get tested for. It’s tax-payer paid if I get the blood order through my mainstream doctor.

The girls and I were supposed to go to the harbor town up north for the day but they both backed out. Carly was the one who suggested today but double booked herself. Libras drive me crazy. Angelina has bad menstrual cramps. so she backed out. I tossed them a link to Anna’s Wild Yam’s Cream should they ever feel so inclined to stop suffering from poor hormone health. They will not be so inclined. Staying chemically pregnant, what could go wrong!? Menopause is going to be rougher than it needs to be for them. Leanne and I decided last month that we will just continue all botched plans without them because we will never do anything otherwise. She is my ride-or-die.

While we were “Finding Habibi” for my D-deficiency, she went on a rant similar to the one I wrote in my previous entry (anti-addict rhetoric). She was more extreme as she has more at stake because she has a family. We should just let them all die! She had to stand in the rain to catch her bus because the bus shack was full of bums shooting up.

Speaking of socialism, I read more of No Bad Parts, the book my therapist wants me to read, and it just pushed anti-capitalism politics on me. It felt like it was written by the government itself. Made my stomach turn. I understood the idea but that is not a part of my value system at all. Codependence is parasitic and I refuse to be responsible for failed people. Do dumb shit, dumb things happen. Why does it have to be my problem?