If You Were Here in Walking with God, Courting, and Talking to Jay

I wish I could take you up on that offer you made so long ago to talk to God for me. I wish you’d pray for me and ask God to send me a partner. Someone who would be a good match for me and make my life easier, ease the loneliness, and spend their life with me. I wish you’d ask him to give me that. Since you can’t be that, I wish you’d ask him to send me someone else. But of course, I can’t even talk to you. You aren’t really there.

You said it wouldn’t be the last time we ever saw each other.... but I’m not so sure. At least you are happy. I like knowing that. I wish I could see it. Instead I’ll just have to remind myself of it every so often. And try not to think about how lonely and withdrawn I’ve become.

Goodnight Jay.