Weekend tragedy in Bittersweet

This weekend started so well. On Saturday we went to the Ren Faire. It was really fun and I enjoyed it. Its quite big and we got to see Jacque the Whipper which was much shorter then I expected but still cool to see him in person. His shorts on tiktok are pretty much the whole show. He did one verse each for three songs requested from the audience an then demonstrated some whip cracks including duel fire whips. And that was it. I would have watched him a second time but little girl was bored. I wanted to watch the jousting but she was bored by that too haha. We did spend 4 hours there. T got a kilt which he changed into and I got a nifty little fanny pack purse with several lace pouches and large rings which I can hook my keys to. A got a wand and fan.
When we were leaving. The world tilted. We were going down some backroads when a pack of motorcycles came at us going insanely fast for country highways. about 5 passed us, then one lost control. The boy was going about 100MPH, ( we later confirmed this speed) He went up the side of a hill off the highway and his bike flew. The bike flew more then 100 feet. Of course im screaming because it flew through the highway up over the hill and through trees. The rider…
We scream to a stop. Thanking GOD honestly his bike did not fly AT us. We were only 50 feet ish from him when he lost control. If it had come at us, we would have been dead..... The way the bike thrashed the road and the trees and the fence.. My god. I made A stay on the side of the car where she couldent see and we ran to where we THOUGHT he was. We found his bike in peices. It was insanely smashed. Some other guy screamed they found him. He was about 75 feet from his bike. Through a barbed wire fence… I think he physically hit the telephone pole and went through the barbed wire. Some of his friends turned around. Others when they saw the crash TOOK OFF! Two stayed.
I called 911 and told them he was on the other side of barbed wire. Can I cut the wire. She said cut it. Both of his legs were bent in opposite directions. Extremely broken. His breathing was so shallow. He had a helmet on. Two friends came with us through the fence. One, the girl knew his name. 911 asked how old he was. NO ONE COULD TELL ME. They said late 30s? I said maybe early 20s. The two kids didnt even know how old he was. He was NOT my age. I relayed his injuries. She kept asking where are you. I shouted i DONT FUCKING KNOW! I left the ren fair, on a backroad headed to colo springs. I got an alert that they had pinged my GPS location and were enroute. for 20 minutes. 20 MINUTES I counted that boys breath and we talked to him. He was awake. Blinking, Tearing. He couldent move, he couldent talk. I relayed his breathes. Getting shallower, getting erratic. Awake.
FINALLY a cop showed up. He asked who called. I said me. He told us to wait here till they could investigate. Finally EMT came, We backed away while they began to work on him.
They pushed on his ribs and they SQUISHED out. They pushed on his belly and his ribs BULGED. They pushed on his hips and they squashed down flat. This boy was So broken. He kept picking up his hand like he wanted someone to hold him. And they kept pushing his hand down.
They tourniquet his leg. They pushed blood in him, they shocked him, intubated him and finally flight for life came and they were able to move him. I dont know if he survived. The cops interviewed us and took our dash cam footage. We watched while they measured his flight distance from ground where he lost control. We overheard them say to travel that distance it was over 80 MPH. This was UP a hill WITH a corner. That was turning into us. You cant imagine how lucky we were his bike went into the woods and not into my car… The boy that stayed, ther other motorcyclist said he was going 80 when the injured kid passed him, he had to be going over 100 because he FLEW past him. Right before loosing control.
Nothing was on the news. So we dont know what happened. The next day nearby a plane crash landed, 2 injured none dead. In a small aircraft on the same highway.
Monday started out fine…
Then receptionist M started freaking out. Her friend was killed. her car was stolen and spotted. Colorado police do NOT respond to missing cars. if its stolen, its just gone. So she tried to follow them. While she was in her other car, behind her STOLEN car. The car behind her open fired and shot her. She plowed into a car wash. she was dead on impact. M took yesterday off and came in at 10 30 today.
I just opened facebook. There was a drive by shooting not 10 miles down the road and someone is dead outside of Popeyes. I guess it was an officer… Details are spare thus far.

I would be lying if I said my anxiety is fine and im ok. That im not freaking out every time I go to work. That im not panicking about how dangerous town has become and its getting so much worse lately. We have heard some loud bangs lately in our neighborhood and dont know if its gun shots or accidents. I realize that I cant know. But fuck. Right now. Im a bit of a mess. And I dont need to hear this happens all over the place. Is this shit happening RIGHT in front of your face? Or are you just seeing it on the news. Because im hearing gunshots at work, there was a drive by on my work street a few years back. Shit is happening in front of my face and that is scary....

Im struggling with this change over at work. Im under a lot of pressure because there isnt anyone to lean on. Everyone is struggling. Therapists have it so easy but they keep saying oh admin can do that. Make it easier on the therapists.
You know our welcome paperwork takes 45 minutes to fill out. It sucks! CEO thinks its acceptable and clients will happily fill it out. I dont think they will lol. I wouldent. But whatever. Not my call. I tried suggesting to cut back on some of it. We dont need ALL of that do we? But she wants it to all go out. So ok. Im sending it. Its just exhausting. I have one on ones with some of the people who are struggling and I can see who does and dosent watch my training videos based on questions people send me.
Its fine, its all fine…
That’s what Zoloft. Busbar and Adderall are for right.

Last updated June 20, 2024