Life is filled with love if you look hard enough in Torridaussity Two

So my life has been a series of bumps lately, but this weekend I was able to get away over night to visit one of my dearest friends and it just gave me clarity and peace. We met years ago as we were in a mutual friend’s wedding and have been friends ever since. We are so alike it is scary.
I am more at peace and less stressed over my mother as even though she fell she hasn’t suffered any setbacks in recovery from her surgery and she may finally get home this weekend. As for my grandfather there is a procedure that can be done to fix the valve problem in his heart. We have to see if he is a candidate, but there is hope. I say there is love everywhere because although I am single and may always be single, there is love all around me. My friends love me and I love them. I love my family and they love me. Although I am keeping open my ok cupid account, I am not letting finding a man be the focus in my life. I am making sure I love myself and those who are in my life the most. I have several self esteem issues and have had them as long as I can remember. I want to work on when I look in the mirror the first thing I think is love you Maria, not oh Maria why do you look like poo this morning.
I want to be happy in who I am and what I stand for. If I am single than so be it, I am not less of a person because I don’t have my “other half” I am a whole person searching for another whole person and together we make each other better, not fill up some missing half.
I hope you are well and that you too can find the love in what you do have in life instead of searching for it elsewhere.