Brief Rambles (L turned 3 today) in Days of My Destiny

Really looking forward to going home this weekend. Looking forward to spending time with my siblings.

Our Internet is up crappy creek yet again. I would love to write about L's 3rd birthday today but I'm typing in my phone so I'll save it for another time.... All I know is that our babies are growing up. She was real happy today. L is really good at making a child feel super special on birthday day. I never had much of that in my life so I'm semi fucking useless at it. Trying to forgive myself for my shortcomings.

Friendships feel useless sometimes. Ive never had much time for the ones that require hard work. I think A is one of those. And then there's H, crushing on my husband all the time. Ugh. Wish I could type in more detail about these but again, will wait for my normal keyboard for that.

Feeling restless RE: my creative side. Need to feed this side of me a lot more and really focus on it. Look after myself. I want to learn new avenues of creativity as the ones I've ever used are stale, insufficient or impractical. I'd like to sew things. That's one idea.

My neck cramped up horribly on Sunday. It's mostly better now but I still need to be careful.

It's late, I need to sleep.

The first night of afternoon shift and night shift is always ... different. I miss my man. Hurry up and come home, baby.

I imitated him today and the way he helps me sometimes. It was hilarious. There's nothing I love more than laughing with my man. Which happens often. I am blessed.