On A Right Track in Current Events

I had an appointment with my ND (Naturopathic Doctor) today. Things seem to be going in the right direction. We discussed my anxiety and depression at length this time around. My anxiety was sky-high the last time we spoke. This time around it is my depression. My depression hit me hard today at work. This made my day long and full of terrors. His educated opinion about my depression is that I am deficient in something that I can’t recall at this second. It is something that makes the hormones dopamine, serotonin, etc. He told me that I could get it from turkey. He didn’t pressure me to quit veganism this time. I told him how turkey used to knock me out. Like, me passing out under the table or halfway onto a couch kind of knock out. A complete and irrevocable K.O. This was evidence that I am indeed deficient in that. We will see how my hormones start regulating with the HCL therapy first. He has something on standby for me should I feel I need it.

We switched the brand of HCL (hydrochloric acid) that I am taking. This one does not contain peppermint. I am at four capsules with this one and I still do not experience anything. Tonight it will be 5 which is the maximum. He wants me to take 5 with every meal. I will reduce the quantity once I start experiencing discomfort. It will eventually drop to zero. We are trying to get my body to start making the right acid levels again. Thus it is no longer an HCL challenge but an HCL therapy.

He asked about my gym sessions. He’s glad that he did because he didn’t have that information. I am training way too hard. He wants me to cut it in half. He promises that I will gain 20lbs in no time his way. We shall see about that. I lost 6 lbs since I started his modified diet. I don’t even miss wheat. This is because I am enjoying the lack of bloating way too much. However, I am bloated currently. I was only taking the HCL once a day for the last few days. My body is not digesting properly, this is what it all means. This is why I am protein deficient. Long-term stress is the cause. We suspect that this will take a lot longer than normal to achieve because of how high my stress is. We are trying to make my body better adaptive to the stress. This doesn’t mean that everything will magically get better. Unfortunately. He recommended that I train my legs so that it will increase my testosterone.

I am allowed to eat nuts again. In moderation. Almonds, cashews, and walnuts. I don’t do peanuts because they contain mold. He was pleased that I already understood that. He wants me to monitor any changes in digestion and moods with that one. Also with nightshade foods. Tomatoes… I wasn’t honest with him that I didn’t quit tomatoes. Now that I know that it could be supporting this systemic issue, I will take a break and see how it goes. I told him that if my face isn’t melting off when I eat, I’m not even eating. My food is always spicy. Peppers are the absolute last thing we will add to my diet. Cayenne pepper, of course. It’s a superfood. Like, top 3. He just doesn’t want these foods to complicate the picture.

I got him to explain why my AB blood type plays such a role in his action plan here. It’s more of a rare blood type because it is a newer one. It’s less than 1000 years old. Only 3% of the population has it. There is an A-type diet and a B-type diet. This can be challenging. If my body is more calibrated for blood type A, then my vegan diet will be more doable for me. I’ll research this eventually. It sounds neat. Blood type diets.

My mind was in a dark place this morning. I was mindful of what my thoughts were. I’ll discuss them with my therapist next week. I think things in that department are going to feel worse before they feel better. There is a lot of unprocessed, unrealized, things to work through. Currently, I am just desperate for it all to stop. I want one whole day in bed. Well, one whole day on a tropical beach would be better. I don’t want to be around people. I don’t want to think about anything. I just want to be.

Anyway, I need to move on with my evening now.