coats inside in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

the weirdest thing to me. isn’t that I was raped that day. it’s that. where the hell was my coat? it was. 40 - 60 degrees that day so surely I would’ve had one. I always have a coat.

he wasn’t. he wasn’t as i’ve mentioned on me he was in me [and sometimes people are both]. um. it’s like being in a house. it’s a location where you are. [ok so that sounds like i’m being objectified. yes but that’s my point. is I was a location. like I wasn’t even there. like I was just there to be admired........looked at. like I was there solely for the purpose of being in.side of]. solely for the purpose of. being raped.
yeah but he.......we.........were dating. well I mean he’s my ex and he’s my rapist he’s both. yes and he’ll alwaysss be both.