Anxiety episode in Age 36

I’m here at work and I can totally function, but my mind is a scrambled mess. There are so many thoughts in my head. I can’t silence them. I have tried most of my coping mechanisms, but they are not working. I feel like everyone can see it. Like anxiety is a rash like leprosy that others eye and look away because it’s unsightly.

I want these thoughts gone. It’s my own mind saying these things, making me feel even worse. What kind of a person doesn’t love themselves? It is everyone is the world, it’s in our person we should be most confident. That is not me. The voice of anxiety is loud and doesn’t allow me to hear anyone or anything else.

Update: I almost cried and blew up at work. CO worker talked me down. Bare feet in grass and in the sun. It works. Grounds you.