All Hubby Wants Is To.... in Me Being Me

Go back to work and I don’t blame him. But he has to start moving and he isn’t. I am thinking he is still not strong enough to go that far so i will let it go for a few more days. Then I will get him to get the mail and do the garbage and organics and see how he is after that.
I am finding that I am not doing what I should be doing and that is not good. I have a sink full of dishes but I am afraid to do them because I think the water is going to be leaking even more then it is now and the faucet is really loose and I am just not comfortable using it. I am thinking if it doesn’t get fixed really soon I will get blamed for the mess the water will make and get evicted. And I would really like to get the filter from the dishwasher and get that cleaned.
I had asked the slumlord for a receipt so I can get my rent lowered because I can not afford the carbon taxes she is charging me and when she does that I will not have to struggle so much and I can afford to pay for whatever. She hasn’t even responded to my e-mail and I am starting to wonder if I should report her becasue the law says she is not allowed to charge me taxes of any kind. Even if it’s to offset the taxes she has to pay. And I can go to abrutration and she will have to give me everything I have paid so far. I figure she owes me right now $500.00 and I will get that I know this.

I told hubby yesterday that I just want things to be working 100% so I don’t have to wonder what I can’t use next. I know for the last 30 years of renting I have never ever had so many issues with a home not being fixed to what the goverment rules are. Every landlord has always fixed what I needed fixed and never ever told me NO or they can’t afford it. but then they have always maintained the aparments or condos and I have always been happy I can use the spaces I have. Right now I have three spoaces i can not use and it looks like I never will be able to use them.
I also asked hubby why mediocer is always the way he goes and he never wants 100% and why is that okay? then I said, “Don’t you deserve to have 100% no matter what?” And he didn’t say anything.

All I want is to go use something that works like it’s suppose to and not worry if it will catch on fire or just stop working. And I shouldn’t have to pay for thing that fix anything becasue it shouldn’t be up to me.

Onto something else....

Hubby wants chicken for dinner so I will get it from the big freezer when I am done this. What else we will have I am not sure. This last while I just haven’t felt like eating much and I am not sure why? Maybe it’s because of the smell or because I am not feeling 100% but I am starting to get worried. But I am eating enough for now.

I need to stop here…

Last updated June 09, 2024