sorry i know this is going to sound callouss. *on my sister* in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

ya know. I love her and she’s a great person but I resent her. my sister. all her life she’s always had everything come so easily to her. she’s never had to work for anything the way I have. other than the coke addiction in HS and the fact that our dad wasn’t there..........those are the only 2 big issues she’s ever had. unlike me. [ptsd, anorexia, cutting, etc].
so I know this sounds callous but it’s more than a little hard for me to have compassion for someone like her.
also it’s not just that. also she’s not a lovely person. she’s not um. like me. she’s not a sweet lady. I mean she’s nice she’s just not sweet. or warm. so that’s another reason why it’s hard for me to have compassion for her.