it's like/i feel like there's something wrong w/ me. *on death* in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

ya know. when my maternal grandmother died. I cried. I got upset the days before it happened. we all knew it was going to at some point we just weren’t sure when. she’d been in hospice for 2 yrs. she passed 3 yrs. ago.

when my great uncle Bill died. well I vaguely remember hearing about it. I didn’t know him so it. didn’t really effect me. and same w/ my paternal grandfather. it’s been uh. 4 yrs. since he passed.

when Pat.........passed. my best friend. oh god I was devestated. he was like a brother to me. we were close. I still haven’t come to terms w/ it. [it’s not quiet been 2 yrs. either].

but w/ my friend. i’m not that emotional about it but I feel like I should be. I have been. briefly. it’s like. it doesn’t feel right as i’m such an emotionally deep person. it feels like there’s something wrong.

Last updated October 07, 2014