But why?? in Adventures in paradise

The closer it gets toward the weekend, the guiltier I feel about calling in sick, haha. Oh I’ve gotta bite the bullet and do it. Two staff called in sick tonight, again, so we were pretty behind. Not only that, but my manager asked me if I wanted to work Tuesday AND Thursday again. I said “No” and “No” lol. Actually, I said No to Tuesday (tonight), because last week I only got one night off, but as I was leaving, I said if he’s desperate on Thursday to let me know. I might feel like working by then.
He said apparently he is hiring again soon, so he won’t have to pester me every single week haha. Him and the 2IC were talking about how Saturday is meant to be a really busy shift (because of Labour Day next Monday) and he’s getting everybody to come in. I kept my mouth shut, lol.
I still have no idea what I’m gonna say. The thing I’ve noticed in the adjustment book at work is a lot of staff are taking ‘personal leave’. I remember reading about that, I believe it’s something new they’ve brought in, where you can take a personal day rather than lying about being sick. Maybe that’d be easier, but I already know about sick leave, except that’d just leave them in the lurch. A lottttta staff seem to also be using this ‘personal leave’ thing though.

I should probably take on the extra hours, as I finally did it this morning. I bought Mariah Carey tickets! HOLY SHIT it has made me excited, considering the miserable memories I had today when I looked at my Timehop app and was reminded that today was exactly a year since I had the huge fight with my dad and he deleted me from facebook. I don’t really wanna relive it or even mention how pathetic he has treated me. What pisses me off is that I’ve been playing pleasantries for a whole year. Even having conversations at family gatherings and events (even though there;s only really been two), but that’s due to my mother’s wishes. So there’s me, preTENDING everything is hunky dory and all that, when in fact I hate my father’s behavior toward me.
I could never, ever treat me child like that, if I had one. It makes me wonder if I had come out whilst living at home, if I would have been welcome there. Luckily I was smarter than that it seems, given his behaviour.
I will never forget, when I was around 13 years old back in the early ‘90’s, dad was flicking channels and the ABC was broadcasting the Sydney Gay & Lesbian Mardi Gras (back when they did that - SBS does it now). Colourful streamers danced on the screen, people cheered, everyone was smiling from ear to ear. I remember exactly where I was sitting on the big couch and my dad in his single chair. All he said was,
‘..Should all be thrown in a room and shot.’ I even remember now (almost 18 years later) thinking, “Why!? But Why?”
I didn’t understand. I was so confused.

So because of the Timehop app, I made a rather harsh Facebook status, which a fair few of you would have seen.
I did find it interesting that I received a message from my mum a few minutes later, which was simple one of those big Facebook emoji’s… of a ‘throwing up face smiley’.
I wasn’t sure what to make of that.
A few minutes later, I get this message from my mum asking ‘What is that? A being sick Smiley? Are you sick?”
I was about to start work, so I just said, “You sent me that.”
It made me wonder, that she must have had my messaging window open, wondering what to say in response to my status, and she’s accidentally gone and hit one of the emoji icons. At least, that’s what I think has happened.
After work, I checked my messages again and she claimed she didn’t even realise.
No biggie. I just kind of scoffed at the timing, that’s all.

So yeah, back to the good news. I’ll be seeing Mariah Carey! Can’t believe it. Not only that, I decided to buy it as an early birthday present to myself, since I never treat myself on my birthday, and I bought the Platinum tickets. I’ll be a fair way back, but I’ll have a direct view of her and I’ll be right next to an aisle also, so when I saw the ticket number, I jumped at it. I can pay that off. Hopefully even by the time she arrives here :) The tickets weren’t as expensive as what I paid for Celine Dion (wow, I am SUCH a gay guy LOL), but they are the second most expensive I’ve ever paid for a concert. I just hope the diva doesn’t cancel or some shit. I was joking with my new gay workmate that she’s probably got a lot of divorce-settlement shit to deal with over there and all, and probably explains why she’s trying to drag up funds all of a sudden. Or maybe she’s shooting countries to get as far away from Nick Cannon as possible.
…Can you believe I just went back and considered changing the word ‘shooting’ in that last sentence, given the new ASIO laws?
God help me. It seems to be getting out of fucking control lately, and G20 hasn’t even arrived yet.
Oh well, maybe some closet-cases there will get a kick out of some of my future sex entries.
Not that that’s been happening in a little while now. Just had a lot on the mind I guess.

I also bought Joel Creasey tickets a few days ago. They were only $35 and he’s hilarious and gay and why the hell not? I need to remove myself from the Ticketmaster website for a while. I kind of want to go to Aqua again because they were so awesome last time, but hey, I’ve already seen them.
I did find it amusing that they were playing ‘Friends With Benefits’ on TV last night, considering Justin Timberlake is touring at the moment. He’s not really someone I’d pay to go see, as talented as I think he is.
But Mariah, hey - who knows if she’ll come back again. Maybe, but hey, a concert at a winery sounds pretty sweet as also.