Blood work in Riverdale

Test

Went to get my blood tested today. Was kind of nervous actually. I’m testing for low iron and low thyroid. I kind of hope they are low because I want to believe my depression is not all mental illness and life events…

I am usually not bad w needles but I think lately I am just stressed and worried about a lot of things. When I worry sometimes I catastrophize. I’m like I’m going to pass out because I haven’t ate, and than I think do I believe my mind is this a reasonable fear? I don’t know what to believe. Thankfully the nurse was nice and I asked her and she said I’ll be fine which I was.

I might enter a writing contest for fun. You win 1000 if they choose you. It’s about not belonging or belonging a time..

I kind of don’t wanna write about a negative life experience but I need to think of a time when I belonged....

Pay day tomm. Excited. Wanna actually cook and order dominos pizza one night couldn’t before because it’s so damn expensive!

Bored wish I was more tired. I am just kind of ruminating wish I wasn’t.
Missing L…:(

I’m going to make a list of things to get done before I go to sleep I guess.

Gnight.