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Very tired.
Slept a few hours this afternoon but then I was pestered by mom to do I’ve her to the store. Seriously, what was the point of her eye surgeries?

I got to craving hardcore. Tried talking to her about it, get it off my chest and out of my mind ya know? She stood there a moment then just walked off without saying anything. I got mad (as usual) and she claims she couldn’t hear me…even though she was literally a foot away LOOKING directly at me. 🤷‍♂️🤬

Of fucking course that started an argument so I just went to my room to brood. I tried gaming some, listening to YouTube to get my mind off the sauce. While it did work I found myself getting really tired by then. I mean I was still beat due to lack of sleep but this time it hit with the force of a baseball bat to the head.

I’m 77 days in, why is my mind telling me to drink??? I hate this…broken part of me. It isn’t right and sure as shit isn’t fair.

Fuckthisfuckthisfuckthisfuckthisfuckthis

I’m going to try and crash after I finish my Icee.

I really shouldn’t have gotten stoned over the weekend, I’m convinced that has made the craving for the drink come around.