Another time, another place. in Adventures in paradise

Unbelieavble. My manager has asked me if I can work, yet again! And yet again, I’ve turned it down. Only because I already have plans.
Must say, one dodgy thing about my work is them calling in part-timers rather than casuals just to save a few bucks. On my side, I don’t have to accept the shifts, although I like to. Most weeks I am usually sitting on my arse doing fuck all, but this week, nope.
Reason I can’t work tonight is I organised to catch up with Benji before he moves to Sweden.
We haven’t caught up in a VERY long time. Since our fall-out actually. It will probably be quite an interesting dinner. We’ve decided to go to a Thai restaurant, as that’s what we used to do on a regular basis back when we were friends. And I’m not about to cancel on him just to go to work for a four hour shift. Like I said, any other time. I was actually hoping they’d ask me to work tonight, but yeah I remembered I had this dinner to attend and he’s picking me up when I’m meant to start.
I feel like I should make an apology. I know I was the one who fucked things up, technically. In fact, I remember why we stopped hanging out, but I can’t remember the details. He decided to make our friendship sexual, and I took that away because I wasn’t comfortable. I knew there was a problem that time in Redcliffe when he turned up to lunch with me and my friends and I went to give him a hug and it was VERY noticeably reserved. It was like I was hugging him, but he basically kept his arms by his side. Right then, I knew my embrace wasn’t welcomed. It was probably stupid anyway. I knew we had issues, but because I’m naturally a hug-gy person, I just did. It’s what I do.
I feel like it’s both of our faults, really. I don’t think I’m the only one at fault here, but I sure feel guilty. I shouldn’t be guilt-tripped into apologising though. I feel like I treated him like shit though, when in fact I was taking a stance. There wasn’t really any other way around it.
Hopefully we can have a nice dinner and a chat. I don’t expect us to avoid the elephant in the room. Will just wait and see how the conversation goes. Work can wait until another night.