9/16 in --

I’m on week three of working out, and my knees and calves are KILLING ME. I didn’t have this problem for the past two weeks, but I can’t run well because of it. :( I don’t know where this came from, I took Friday off, and the whole weekend, and it still hurts. I’ve done a workout everyday despite the pain, and I couldn’t do a full 20 minutes. I tried to tone it down a bit and stretch beforehand.... I just hope it goes away soon.

I’m feeling bigger this week than I did when I started working out. :( I know I’m probably not, but it sucks. I feel like I’m making no progress. I wouldn’t know if I actually am because I don’t have any way to track my progress.

Cannon hasn’t been to daycare for the past couple of days because he’s sick again. Poor guy. He’s coughing and snot is pouring out of his nose. He is having a hard time sleeping. :( He did get up at 8am this morning, which is good. Hopefully he will have a better bedtime tonight. Last night it was 11pm.

We got an antenna box so now I can watch football games, and The Price is Right! I watched the Chiefs play on Sunday, and lo and behold, it was not fun to watch. Everyone kept getting penalties and it was a slow, slow game. Also the Chiefs suck this year. -.-

Today I made fruits and vegetables out of construction paper and Cannon and I glued them onto paper, and then he colored on the paper. He wanted to color everything red. And then he ripped off my beautiful construction paper fruits/veggies! He is destructo-boy. I wish you guys could have seen the beauty of my art.

I’m just glad I got to actually do something fun with Cannon. Lorelei has been happier lately, fortunately. Smiles all over the place! She is still pretty clingy (she just loves her mama), but what 1.5-month-old isn’t?

Every time I snuggle her I feel so much intense love like I did with Cannon when he was a baby. People say they worry about loving one more than the other, but I definitely don’t. I love them both so, so much. People say they love their children differently too, but I don’t feel differently about them. I feel the same love for both of them. I guess it’s hard to explain. I think some people confuse loving their kids with bonding. Most people bond with each kid differently, but I don’t think that’s the same as loving them differently.
Maybe I’m wrong though!

RuPaul always says “if you can’t love yourself, how the hell are you gonna love someone else,” at the end RuPaul’s Drag Race.

I am not sure I believe that though. I think you can love someone and still not love yourself, as long as you’re not co-dependent on them to love you for you. If that makes any sense at all. My brain is mush since having kids, man.

OMG RUPAUL IS SINGING (I am currently watching it while my children nap). I HAD NO IDEA SHE COULD SING. <3

I love this show…

Last updated September 16, 2014