it's been 3 yrs. and..... *SA* in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done.

since my 2nd sex abuse. it still doesn’t seem real. like that’s what it actually was. I mean. he pushed me into sex. he used protection and I didn’t.

but if it hadn’t been real. I wouldn’t have spend like. a yr. after having dreams and flashbacks. I would’ve been ready. to be in a relationship. I wouldn’t have body memories of the soreness of........uh, that.

please don’t tell me to talk to someone about this.