Ramblings in Current Events

I am fighting with myself to sit down and study. What else is new? I figure that if I quickly write something I will be able to get in the mood for it.

Yesterday I went with my sister to see the Santa Claus parade with my niece and nephew. They had a blast. My sister is a strung-out mess, however. It is clear that she has issues with anxiety. The root of which is control. If she can’t control something it is the end of the world. Her Capricorn energy is showing. Speaking of control and anxiety, self-control is my trigger. That would be my Capricorn with a Scorpio Mars energy.

Ben Shapiro is also a Capricorn with a Scorpio Mars. He and I have very similar charts, in fact. We’re both Capricorns with Taurus risings. We have a Capricorn Mercury and a Scorpio Mars. We both have our North Nodes in the 1st house. Along with Chiron. We both have an 8th-house stellium and we both have our Sun in the 9th house. Where we differ, greatly, is with our Moon placements. I have a Scorpio Moon and he has a Gemini Moon. I want to get to the bottom of things and leave no stone unturned. His Gemini Moon would want a quantity of knowledge, not necessarily the quality. ‘Tis why he just regurgitates factoids without questioning the facts. Then he just debates freshmen and feels like a boss. My Scorpio Moon makes things hard to get over. His Gemini Moon… Gemini doesn’t dwell. They get over things really quickly. We are polar opposites here. Jared Leto is another Capricorn with a Taurus rising. Matt Rife is a Virgo with a Taurus Rising. Taurus Risings are supposed to be stunning but here I am, a minger lol. Offensive to all 6 senses; I include fashion sense. (Shamelessly fishing for compliments). Ben’s 1st house placements, he probably has a lot of self-image issues. Just a hunch. His Moon is there as well.

The conservative civil war between Candace Owens and Ben Shapiro is interesting. The self-right is no different than the far-left. Ben is displaying that. He is emotionally hijacked. He’s unhinged. This is in regard to the conflict in East Palestine. What’s he supposed to do though? He married a woman “from Israel.” Candace is not saying the correct things and Ben is throwing a tantrum about it. Among other conservatives. She is questioning the narrative like a true pundit. When you don’t go along with the mainstream narrative you are a racist transphobe, etc. When you don’t go along with the right, you are anti-Semitic. The holocaust, as we were taught, was not the worst thing to happen to humanity. It was just the worst thing to happen to white people. They’re always the victim in every situation. If anyone from the left tries that… someone from the Dailywire appears. I think the right is starting to see that the counter-narrative is controlled. There is a lot of propaganda being pushed from the right about the regime in east Palestine.

Let’s be real about Candace for a minute. She is growing a cult. She is vetting public conservatives to make sure they are real conservatives. She is building conservatism in her image. Traditional marriage as well. She is the shero of traditional marriage when traditional marriage isn’t multiracial like hers. It didn’t have two incomes like hers. She didn’t even take his last name. I doubt she saved herself for marriage. This is a woman who got engaged three weeks after meeting someone. This is not somebody I would take any relationship advice from. She’s lucky he isn’t a predator or killer. If you don’t agree with her then she goes live on BurnBook and politically assassinates you just like a leftist. I digress. Do I digress? I’m just talking aimlessly.

Candace is the self-rights answer to leftism. The self-right gets to fight identity politics with identity politics. Her opinions are ethnically sourced. She fights just as dirty as a leftist but is very sophisticated. Is Candace the real deal? I think she might be. I don’t trust anybody mainstreaming but she has been circling around the truths. A Shot in the Dark, for starters. She didn’t go all the way and get to the bottom of germ theory but it is a start. She once asked If the government can take something away that is yours… is it really even yours? That was a breadcrumb. She is, or was, being tutored in case she runs for president. The answer is no. Nothing is really ours which is why they can take it away. Everything registered belongs to the king. We are just authorized users. This system is not ours it is foreign. We were conquered a long time ago. Civil law is ancient Roman law for conquered territory.

A lot of things that she says are unhinged and not thought out. She is really good at backtracking though. She is a Taurus with an Aquarius Moon. Both of which are very stubborn. Even if they know they are wrong they are right. She has a Cancer Mars. This may seem like a beta placement but Cancers can be emotionally manipulative. Though Candace will never show pain and fear, she knows how to play on emotions. We don’t know her rising but I suspect that it is Capricorn. If not, her sun might be in the 10th house. Her cheekbones, that’s a dead giveaway. Prominent Capricorn placements have stellar bone structure. Cher has a Capricorn Moon, poor thing. Candace with a Capricorn rising would make perfect sense. Capricorn is the fire sign of the earth signs. When a Capricorn says something, it is usually very well-researched and thought out. She at least has Saturn, Uranus and Neptune in Capricorn.

I did chest at the gym today. Pushed through my fucked up shoulder. I am doing that thing now where I look in the mirror and hate how I don’t look ripped. I don’t look jacked. I don’t look shredded. These things take time. There was a guy there who was a 10 out of 10. By my standards. His body, at least. I have to review my nutrition and start thinking about my macros. Bodies like that come from 80% diet, 10% exercise and 10% rest. He was also in his twenties so probably has it pretty easy. Late twenties I reckon. I could be wrong. Most people think I’m 25-28 years old. I turn 38 in January. When Venus rules your chart…

I did book an appointment to see an acupuncturist next Sunday. I’m going to book a massage with their osteopath as well. Maybe sooner rather than later. Use up as much of my group benefits as possible before it renews in January.

TMI Warning
Circling back to self-control… it’s hard to say where I stand with my battle with NoFap right now. The more I don’t want to watch porn and do watch porn things the more I want it. I’ve been able to keep my hands off myself. However, I can’t keep my eyes off nudity online. So on one hand, I’m not fapping but on the other, I’m a dirty old pervert. I’ve gone 5 days without touching myself. I was finally able to feel my orgasm when I did. It was stronger than ever. I could have kept it for an hour but I didn’t have all day. I want to keep delaying gratification. I will also have to find a way to stay off of my phone. I think I might join the semen retention club. I like the self-discipline of it all.

My roommate is still taking a break from her boxing gym. It’s been great having her home all weekend with me. I’m totally built to be surrounded by people 24/7… NOT!!!!!!!!! It’s her home too so it’s not a big deal.

Okay, it’s time to hit the books. I can take the pressure off of this test because I suspect that it will indeed be the one that gets thrown out at the end of the class. The test with the lowest mark gets thrown out. It’s the hardest unit. We already had a test for the first half of the unit. The last half, which is more like 1/8th of the unit, is what we are being tested on. The new unit is so easy. We are almost done already. We will probably be tested on it the following week. Alright, time to master stoichiometry.