And The Symphony Resolves in My New Life
Revised: 11/04/2023 9:49 a.m.
- Nov. 4, 2023, midnight
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Our higher-ups came through which explains the intense feelings of anxiety (in the more unstable co-workers). The symphony continues to play. All is forgiven. And, my up-coming exams look promising, and my next semester is shaping-up with registration, and claiming the spots I need to fulfill my program.
I don’t mind feeling pressure. Pressure is a part of life, and actually feels good when it is managed properly. What bothers me most is how people generally are not aware of the patterns they are in. It’s like stressing over bills at the beginning of every month, getting through them, relaxing and forgetting that bill time is the same time every month. Stressing, getting through one way another, and never just preparing for the same pattern to keep re-occurring.
I’ve made friends with my neighbors downstairs. It just sort of clicked really well. The chemistry is sort of a Big Bang friendship feeling. I’m a very introverted extravert or a very extraverted introvert, but either way I can manage both. Ever since The Pandemic I have really been a loner. Before it - I had folks from work over quite often cooking, drinking, philosophizing, and just hanging-out having a good time. Some portions of my life have been excessively social, and others have been exceptionally isolated. But, when The Pandemic hit it all just sort of became isolated. My best friend ended up having a nervous breakdown, and the folks I entertained moved away, and it was all just so chaotic after all that. I really ended up being very lonely for a while, and not knowing where to fit in. So this is a long awaited pleasant surprise. And I am thrilled to be accepted in the little community downstairs from me.
Last updated November 04, 2023
TL ⋅ November 05, 2023
Glad to hear that you’re branching out again. I also had a little reset in my social life around that time.
That pattern you described is indeed hard to witness. Self-awareness is also brutal. I get stuck in patterns all the time.
Zampano TL ⋅ November 06, 2023
Well, routine is healthy. I thrive in routine. However, since life constantly throws wrenches at you it is always a matter of putting your head down to stay in it, or a matter of getting the train back on the tracks.
You seem to have a good routine going for you.