I Am Incapable Of Synthesizing Depression in My New Life

First off, I don’t really believe in it. That’s really the Greek influence in my life. We are alive and the other option is being dead. And that by nature of being in the first of those two options should automatically be an anti-depressant. And that feelings of depression are symptoms of your beliefs or how you are living. For instance, if I go into work and begin thinking of doing this for 24 more years, I begin to become depressed. However, I have to go home and think about all the things I could transition into, or begin planning my vacations, or focus on being goal oriented that day, and for me that’s going to hot yoga so that when I do go on vacation and go surfing, or snowboarding on another vacation, I will be fit, flexible and ready for fun when it arrives. Plus, I focus on daily rewards.

This is where my being an empath has been a big struggle of mine personally. I know my father, sister and elder brother are depressed. I can feel it. I wake in a state of mind of depression that I have to logic through just rid myself of that mental disease. Their belief system is depressing. For instance, I don’t have qualms over being an athletic, attractive 34 year old. I revel in it. I use it as leverage as having quality run through my veins. I have sweethearts who message me with pictures of themselves and who talk to me about the relationships they are currently in. However, the ideology of the depressed and the damned would use terms like womanizer though it truly doesn’t fit.

My two biological brother’s are vehemently jealous. When we all went to the Ski & Snowboard Slopes, I was riding around with my Instructor Buddies getting the VIP treatment. And all the Snow-Bunnies turning their heads to get a glimpse at me. My two brothers were in the crowd, and they found every reason to attack me and my character afterwards. Their belief system was questioned that day. They believe themselves to be far superior than myself but they can’t prove it in front of a jury, or the public. You see, I have the power of the people on my side. I believe in the people. I’ve worked along side 100s if not 1000s of good Americans like yourself, and they have witnessed first hand what I am capable of. I have done Yoga alongside the mats of 100s if not 1000s of Yoga practitioners, and felt their hearts resonate during those therapeutic times and hearts do not lie. One heart. One Love. One frequency. And…

“Only the unloved and unnatural hate.”
-Charlie Chaplin

“People won’t remember what you say, or what you did, but they will remember how you made them feel.”
-Maya Angelou

Last updated October 20, 2023