Deep in Hi

Want to know something deep? I don’t think I made most of life’s important decisions. I think I let life happen.

I never chose a boyfriend or a husband (I have had 2 husbands). They chose me and loved me. It is hard for me not to love somebody back. Why was I so shocked when my first husband didn’t love me anymore. He made the decision.

I never picked a career. My career picked me.

We didn’t decide or discuss having a child, but it happened.

I did decide to get my tubes tied at 25. It was hard to find a doctor to accommodate.

I didn’t decide when our son went to live with his Dad. They made the decision and let me know.

I have a good life (accidentally?)

Remember when I went back to work part time for two months to train the new girl? They could not have been nicer. When I left (again) they knew my husband was having surgery and so was I. I haven’t heard a peep from anyone, except the girl I trained. I feel used. I didn’t want to go back, I felt obligated. They paid me of course. Nothing beyond that. No gift card or flowers for a thank you. Guess I will never hear from them unless they need something

Random thoughts

Last updated October 18, 2023