I want a friend in Age 36

I’m 36. I want a friend like I had in elementary or Middle School, or hell, even high school. I want a ride or die friend. Someone I can talk to about anything. That friend that will laugh with me about stupid shit. A friend that knows what I need without asking.

I want a Firefly Lane type of best friend. Someone who is going to sit with me and daydream. Listen to my venting, then I listen to hers. I want they special bond that seemed so easy to forge in my younger more innocent years, which seems so intangible now.

I feel lonely.

I feel not seen. As if I’m not worthwhile to anyone. I know that I shouldn’t base my worth on others perceptions and validation, but damn it feels good. I want someone whose excited to make conversation with me.

I’ll keep praying.