Something Broke in My New Life

I’m feeling a helluva lot better. I woke up this afternoon after working all night and turning in my essay in class this morning. When I woke up I was feeling like a weight was pushing my head down, and I was depressed. Where is this coming from? I pushed through it. I know where it’s coming from. When I awoke with coffee and some samurai music, my mood turned the complete opposite. I looked into transferring to a near by college. It made me feel better to at least look down the road at my options. Even after I get my Nursing degree, I’ll still take classes. I have some unfinished business with my English degree, and Marine Biology to be an accredited science author at least on the side.

This past week I really felt like I had a heavy blanket draped over me. My brain wasn’t working during my week to study for exams. Come to find out I was in the class average range. That’s not where I believe I belong, but I have been in this game long enough to know that given what I deal with in my personal life, I have to make it work for me. I have always been a pillar for my family to tie to. On the family farm my parents couldn’t rely on my elder brother in the work there which left me driving tractors for hours by age 12, and sitting on top of our young bulls, holding their tales up while my great Uncle would castrate them with a razor blade. The local vet always said my Uncle did precision work. I learned in my first experience in college, they still try to rely on me when I’m studying. So I don’t get too down about the times I am getting pulled away from my studies.

Anyway, I felt a fresh wind of excitement at the possibilities coming my way. I’ll be heading to hot yoga sauna a bit later and I got on a few tasks that had been nagging at me to accomplish like my Flu and Covid vaccines for work. The young lady at the local pharmacy who jabbed me with a needle was fantastically delightful. I really enjoy being a part of something like Nursing. It feels really good to be doing something in the Health related field. Something, I feel good about. A good coat I can leave behind me when I’m gone.

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Last updated October 13, 2023