1:16 AM in Hello

No one commented on my last entry. 😭
No worries, just one of my wild ideas

Had a double whammy today. Piss test at group then piss test at the courthouse. I failed them. THC for group and THC and alcohol at court. I know the latter because they have a machine that will break down the sample and further analyze it. I see another counselor Wednesday for a referral to River Valley and Dr. Ian Thursday afternoon. Even if they have a waiting list I’ll request to be put on it. It’s free. I just won’t be able to bring my cell phone. Hopefully if I’m not in by October 20th when I go before the judge again she’ll have the info that I’m going in to inpatient and not lock me up.

I’ve been apprehensive but as time goes by a month away from stress, easy access to booze and a real chance to clear my head seems like the perfect setting I need. We had a youngin’ start group yesterday. Sublime shirt and Grateful Dead keychain. Can you advertise anymore that you like to get high?

Speaking of getting fucked up, I signed a pledge for Sober October. Just trying to hold myself accountable.

I did manage to finally pass out this afternoon. Damn near got up to 90 today so even with the fan and AC unit going it was still warm in here. I am SO ready for the cold front that’s coming this weekend. Highs in the 70’s and lows in the 50’s to 40’s. Dear sweet autumn weather. I have noticed the leaves are changing. It’s pretty. I might bust out my flannel shirt and go for a hike on the mountain. Been a long time since I’ve gotten out into nature like that. It’ll do me some good.

Anyways, enough rambling. Gonna go back to sleep.

5:16 AM

Yeah I never went back to sleep. I’m getting hungry but don’t want Pop Tarts. I’d like some greasy sausage links with a nice over easy egg with a toasted English muffin. Too bad I only have eggs. Eggs and bacon ain’t bad. Wish I had a tortilla to make a breakfast burrito. Group in three hours, call color code in forty minutes. But first, food then a shower. I’m smelly…

Last updated October 03, 2023