Food Stuffs in Hello

I’ve been in a poor mental health funk this past week. Last night was really bad. I am the king of self sabotage.

Anyways, mom is feeling bad for me and said we’ll go out to eat tonight. My choice. Too bad I’m drawing a blank on what I want. Banana split! Yeah, keep dreaming dude.

A long, hot shower is in order.

Hours later…

Stay Stuft Marshmallow Fat Man

We ended up at the Chinese buffet. The egg drop soup was nice and thick tonight, almost like a syrup. Chock full of egg whites as well. I ate heartily on the soup, lo mien noodles and teriyaki chicken. Mom told me about her day. Apparently the supervisor was on a rant about how everyone is getting fatter lol. He’s on a forced diet. I’d be cranky too.

I’m nervous about tomorrow. Missed group Wednesday and didn’t email so it’ll be unexcused. Six of them gets you kicked out. I’m not sure how many I have. I hardly left the couch Wednesday, I didn’t want to face the world. So, sitting in a room of addicts wasn’t my top priority as I didn’t feel like listening to other people’s nonsense. Reminds me of all the times I’d leave an AA meeting even more depressed than I was at the beginning.

Last updated October 02, 2023