Positive on the bar exam (first try); negative on the pregnancy test (second try) in My life

Phew as to the first one, I guess.

As to the second, at least the pregnancy test isn’t just offered twice every year, doesn’t cost hours to apply for, $700 to take and $1,000 and 10 weeks of studying to prep for, doesn’t take 12 hours of furious typing, and so many emotional breakdowns.

I wondered what happened between that time when we conceived our miscarried baby and now. How is it that we barely did anything last time and got pregnant on our first try versus now when we were going at it so hard and it didn’t happen? and then I remembered… oh yeah, I turned 30 last June. Who knew the difference between conceiving in your 20s vs. 30s would be so stark?

Anyway, I’m real glad to have that behind me. The bar exam, I mean. My time could be spent on better things than studying for and taking this exam. That’s why it was a good thing to pray for. I attribute my success to the intersession of St. Joseph Cupertino, patron saint of exam takers.

“Pray as if none of your work mattered;
Work as if none of your prayers mattered”

I think it’s amazing they created a test that is actually very passable– over 80% of takers in my state pass– but at the same time so very daunting and stressful. Props to that. I have to begrudgingly admit that it did help with my job to know that much law from studying for this exam. It gives me a starting point at least when I’m trying to research something new. Gratitude. That’s why school and general education are necessary I guess: they don’t teach you everything you need to know in life, but their aim is to give you some starting points so you can handle all kinds of problems in your life.

But now that I’m out of school for the first time in my life, at age 30, I’m fond of telling my husband: education is SO overrated. Adult life is so much better!