Losing to fibromyalgia in Just Life

I have fibromyalgia. I finally have been told what it is after years of begging doctors for help. I stay in pain 24/7. I have to take medicine to function without crying. Some days I accomplish more some days I accomplish less. Today I changed the trash cans in the bathroom and cleaned my bedroom a little. To a person who doesn’t suffer with pain that is a basic task. For people like me every moment hurt. I cleaned one bag of trash but it made my feel like I ran a marathon. My love language has always been acts of service. I have been hard on myself because I haven’t accomplished all I needed to.

Today I was so exhausted from work I went to take the dogs out. I sat down for a break because of the pain and fell asleep in the chair. I woke up 2 hours later the puppies kissing me. I checked my phone to discover I missed a call from my husband. I had to confess I fell asleep at moms. As soon as I got home my husband kissed me on the forehead told me to take a nap. It was the most romantic thing he ever said to me.

I miss the days when I could accomplish everything with ease. Now it’s a struggle to just survive.