Nerve pt 2 in Current Events

I only feel 60% regret over my new look. I seem to always forget why I go months without a haircut. If not years after that one time I got so fed up so I grew it out. Way out. Halfway down my spine. One botched trim later I had to chop all that off.

I’m back to seeing a barber and I had high hopes that it would go perfectly but it didn’t. I bring a picture, I communicate what I like and want and then I get none of it. Every. Single. Time. I have everything I dislike right now. Why did he need to ask a dozen questions about it? I’ll be okay. I’ll know how to communicate better next time. I liked the barber though. He gets hyper focused. He’s a strong silent type. He’s Chinese, his level of manners are something I don’t see anymore. What he did give me was still good. I might go back to fix one thing. I wanted a low fade with it long on top. It’s not long on top but it isn’t a fade. I should have got him to start from the skin instead of a 2 gauge. I’ll at least get it done that way next time I go in. Might post pics tomorrow. Maybe.

I have a tendency to get fixated on things. I could probably be put on the spectrum lol. I’ll just go with my natal chart having a Scorpio Mars & Moon. Plus a stellium in the 8H containing Mercury. My 6H stellium makes me addicted to routine and order. I haven’t been in control of it as of late. Things are changing in my fragile little world, I could have worse coping mechanisms. So I drive around the whole city looking for a stand or upholstery, etc. I’m just feeling off track at the moment. Don’t know where to put that potent energy. Don’t know how to direct it anywhere I should say.

I felt like a makeover would give me that new me energy but it feels more like old me energy. Not a bad thing. I miss a lot of things about older versions of myself. I feel like I am getting a fresh start and I don’t mind overthinking it. I got a second job. Potentially might be leaving the one I have for a different location, I’m quite attached to this one. I like the people there. I applied for full-time at two other locations. I also register for school in a couple of weeks. I wish studying math was something I could get fixated on.

Anyway, I’m just feeling some type of way at the moment. Mentally & energetically. My body feels great though. I like the way it’s looking also. Until I don’t lol. Just wish I wasn’t crashing so hard in the afternoons. My naps are heavy.

Another boring entry! Lol