The Perks of Getting Older. in My New Life

God, what a day. I woke up in a state of chaos. All is lost and at the worst timing ever. I really can’t get it together. Everything is foggy and distant. And today is the day everything I’ve worked for for the last 8 months is depending on. If today falls through I really don’t know what I’ll do. Perform perform perform… Chaos consumes my thoughts. Who am I? Why do I feel this way? I feel out of control. This isn’t like me. Get it together. I’m running out the door. Where was I going again? Oh shit. I need something from inside. Round in circles I go. Hold it together. Why do I feel this way? At this point I am moving faster than anyone can keep track of. I have a plan and I’m seeing it through. I’m fixing today, you see. Do you follow? I tapped. I’m fixing it all, though. I’m moving and thinking faster than folks can keep up with. I hope I don’t seem altogether too desperate. Hold it together. Stay calm. Don’t appear to be desperate. Yes, this all normal, ma’am. I’m fixing today. Its like riding a whirlwind. I am Pecos Bill in Tall Tales lassoing all the resources I need. I’m fixing today.

I fixed today. I turned in my doctor’s excuse to work. I fixed today and I stopped by to see a psychiatrist I work with. I’ve promised to visit his office for 6 months now. I fixed today and now I am throwing in tricks to show-off. We have nice conversations. He is a guitarist. I play music too. He is having issues with a neighbor. I read a book on how to deal this type. I’m dealing with folks like that too. We talk it all out and we plan on grabbing food sometime. New friends. Life is awesome. I fixed today.

Last updated July 19, 2023