2 weeks until the bar exam in My life

I have to tell myself that I’m not doing this because I love it. I’m doing it because I absolutely hate, abhor, despise, detest this and I just want to be DONE!

I guess there are worse things to go through than having to take the bar exam. Sigh. And in any case, we have to make the best of the situation that we’re in and strive to do the right thing in whatever circumstances that we find ourselves in. That’s the lesson of this episode of VeggieTales called “Joseph and his Coat of Veggie Colors,” inspired by the story of Old Testament Joseph.

I came to know about VeggieTales at the old age of 30 but I fell in love. My kids are going to watch VeggieTales.

Bar exam studying is a lesson in grinding your way through to… I don’t know what. The process is: Start at zero –> Grind –> Find out I’m not good enough –> Grind some more –> Find out I’m still not good enough –> Annoyance –> Grind some more –> Find out I’m still not good enough –> Panic –> Grind some more –> Find out I’m still not good enough –> EXTREME QUESTIONING-THE-WHOLE-POINT-OF-MY-EXISTENCE PANIC –> Grind some more –> Find out I’m still not good enough –> Acceptance that there’s nothing else I could do but grinding and maybe I could at least maintain where I’m at and maybe get lucky? –> Grind some more –> Find out I’m still not good enough –> EXAM DAY.

You know, at least I could work in my favorite green, blue, and yellow PJ and pink sweatshirt, which make me look like a cake.