Some people's kids. in Since OD is shutting down....

But yeah, I just think it’s crazy how my Mom was totally good with my daughter having a big sister but then had plenty to say about her Dad being in her life. I totally understand that this has been a complete dumpster fire but every child deserves to have 2 parents and if I can let go of the anger and madness, then I expect everyone to do so. I have so much to say about this and probably won’t be able to fit it all into 1 entry.

I had gone over there 1 day while my daughter was with her Dad after school while my Mom tells me how they aren’t really into the idea of him taking her. I was instantly pissed because he was sitting right there and I know he was the one influencing this. Nothing is ever said about her after school program, or daycare, the big sister or her going to my brother’s house but just about her Dad spending time with her. I find that just too iffy.

Everyone needs to understand that I am not going to keep my daughter from anyone. If there’s people that want to take my daughter that are safe and WANT to spend time with her, they are more than welcome to do so. Even his girlfriend still plans to take her even if they split up and I think that is absolutely beautiful.

I personally believe that my Dad just doesn’t like it because it’s more people he has to be aware of and that means more people to help me with her when I needs it so I don’t have to ask my Mom and risk him being around her. I don’t believe my Dad is truly concerned about my daughter’s best interest, but more for his own. I have seen too much of his behavior that I have EVERY FUCKING RIGHT to be concerned and if there was an emergency or I needed someone to take her for a day or two, I would have absolutely no problem getting ahold of his girlfriend and having her drive up here to get her.

This piece of shit has made absolutely sure my Mom has never been much of a Mom to me or my older brother and she’s been pretty absent with our children but thinks he’s going to have some kind of pull when it comes to my daughter’s Dad being in the picture?! I think the fuck not! I will say his behavior has tapered off significantly but just a month ago he tells my daughter he was going to come over to my house and give her a bath so I still have to be high vigilant and know that I have to stay one step ahead at all times. My Mom may look the other way and pretend like she doesn’t see this shit but I won’t.

Over the years, any time he’s ever been confronted about porn computers and phones always mysteriously have vanished and CPS were called multiple times. I have also been the whistleblower for 20 years. I also made allegations just a year ago with my daughter where he had my little brother call my older brother completely freaking out but yet it still doesn’t scare him enough to completely stop. I will never stop being the helicopter Mom and that’s that. The guy is a freak and probably should be in jail.

I think it’s just insane how many times I had told the authorities what he did to me and he was never charged. He has just gotten away with too much for too long so he feels he’s invincible. I refuse to allow him to harm my child. I feel like he’s just hoping that someday I’m going to be desperate enough that I’ll need my Mom to babysit and he’s going to get the chance to harm her but I’ve made sure that just doesn’t happen. He also knows he’s not to be around my child and that’s why he doesn’t allow her to babysit anyways.

I plan to go get my daughter’s tv while I don’t have her. I wonder if he’ll think about that. I like to make sure that she’s never around him. Wouldn’t you ever connect the dots and realize that no one wants you around, especially where there’s children?! I think he absolutely gets it but just doesn’t care!!

My daughter deserves to spend time with everyone that makes time for her where she gets to go out and have fun. I’m not going to keep her from that to basically protect someone and their behavior. She’s missed enough time with her Dad and I won’t have her miss out on more to help protect someone that needs to get help.