How Am I? in Hello

Depressed, yet again. Overwhelmingly feeling sad and alone.

I was doing good mentally. What happened? Is it because of my relapse? Because I miss new friend (we parted ways for our own mental health)? That the days are mundane and repetitive?

Hungry
Angry
Lonely
Tired

H.A.L.T.

I’m lonely and tired.
I’m feeling that I’ll just keep relapsing and die a miserable death, alone.
I’m feeling like no matter how well I feel, it only takes one thing to make all that come crashing down.
That there is no end to this depression.
Life isn’t getting any better
It’s a scary world and it’s only getting worse.

What’s the fucking point anymore?

I’m reminded of the great Socrates when he said, “I drank what?”

Maybe I should tell the judge to just lock me up for my own safety. Yeah, that’s an insane thing to say, but the lunatics ARE running the asylum.

Harry Dresden is calling me. New chapter it is!

Last updated June 30, 2023