This is me trying in 2023

Music has kept me sane .. it always has. But now more than ever.

The last two days have been surreal .. I know you’re here with me.

As skeptical as I am, there’s no way the random songs & specific lyrics I’m hearing in the background music on the radio haven’t been you literally responding to the conversations I’m having with you in my head.

I never pay attention to the radio, its just always on low in the background, even you liked always having it quietly on. But now it middle of whatever I’m doing, while talking to you in my head, I’ll hear a lyrics to a song I don’t even know that responds directly to whatever I was just saying to you.

Or I’ll be aching deeply, cresting a wave missing you, and a song that was always meaningful to me/us suddenly comes on.

I’ve been testing it .. you .. for almost a week now and despite being a firm believer that you can interpret music any which way you want to given your circumstances at the time .. this can’t possibly be coincidence or interpretation anymore.

The title for this entry is a Taylor Swift song .. Yesterday morning I was sitting with my coffee gazing at your memorial, and I whispered, “Babes, please, are you here?”

And this song came on … so … I hear you, my love, I hear you.