april 18, 2012 in The Wonderland Years: 2012: 1/2 done

'how i'm doing physically/not a pill popper.

its cold out. or looks so. and cloudy. I don't feel good. currently 5:20 p.m. watchin 'friends'. i'm quesy and tired. and you know that achy feeling right before you get sick? yeah i'm there too.

i haven't eaten much today at least the room stopped spinning anyway            slightly dizzy.

my aback still feels like it needs to be popped.damnit. its restless as am i. i dont know what it is but lately i want to  go somewhere i want to do something. go somewhere. go out.

as it so happens james and i are going to the parents' tonight. while theyre........not in the country. ive never done that w/ anyone. its hot. im nervous.

id ont feel like writing now so ill E this later