Feelin' Hot Hot Hot in Hello

I’m burning up. Just turned the AC on.

I’ve been lost in thought today. I go back to court on May 2nd. Dr. Gilbert is pushing for me to do inpatient rehab. I’m ready. I’m tired of feeling sick all the time, the constant diarrhea, dry heaving, dehydration etc.

An old friend from high school works as a paralegal at the law firm. Last time I was there she point blank asked me if I was ok. I gave her the honest answer, no, no I’m not.

Made dinner earlier then promptly lost my appetite.

Think I’m gonna get a big glass of water and relax. This stupid weather has been playing hell on my sinuses. Been talking to New Friend most of the day. I really wish she lived closer, I could use a good hug and cuddle right now. I’m feeling lost.

Updated

Sweating it out on the couch. I’m tempted to go to an AA meeting tomorrow for advice on rehab.

I haven’t eaten much today. The chicken I baked for dinner made mom sick. I ate two chicken tenders from the other night to try and settle my gut. It’s almost one AM and I’ve been fading in and out of a Murder, She Wrote marathon. Smokey is chilling in my lap. I’d really like some egg drop soup. That would be lite enough to eat.

Someone come put me out of my misery.

I’m not gonna lie, the thought of rehab and sobriety scare me. I’m not good at regulating my emotions or my mental health. Anyways, I’m thinking a shower might be in order. But that requires me to move and the room is spinning a bit.

Last updated April 27, 2023