oct. 3, 2012 in The Wonderland Years: 2012: 1/2 done

'.......vindictive. bc no that's my dept.

On the whole. fight. thing. between the boyfriend and i.

I was thinking about this earlier. and, now.

He's a nice guy. a really nice guy. He doesn't mean to hurt me. [well other than sexually but i like s&m, so]. He even pointed this out to me that night when we had the fight. he just. lacks compassion. Ya know, so he's like 'i'm not doing this to hurt you'.

I love him. a lot. a whole helluva lot. but i'm not happy w/ him. again.