nov. 6, 2012 in The Wonderland Years: 2012: 1/2 done

'So yeah. the other day we talked and he said he knows when I say I want to end us it's just bc I'm scared. well i mean yes and no. I'm scared to lose him and yet i'm scared to be w/ him. not bc it's him or anything. but bc I'm scared of commiment. no wonder i never finished college.

But i mean. that's not the only thing i want to get away from. the other is me and i figure by cutting off all contact from anyone..........well then.i.........can............