nov. 6, 2012 in The Wonderland Years: 2012: 1/2 done

'um so obviously from the title i've been having PTSD moments lately. Last night and the one before I erm. 'visited the circus' as it were. and then we smoked. Along w/ that came um. nausea/quesiness. idk. cause like we eat when we're hungry and we always eat when we're high. but we eat other times aside from that.

The other day, we were in bed and he was holding me but i was facing the wall. the wall my bed used to be against which i moved bc that wall is where i was r*ped. well i mean not on it but against it.

And this morning we were smoking and an ember flew 'there' and he got it but then he explained what had happened. and so that triggered me. it was more him talking about it then the actual action.