nov. 14, 2012* in The Wonderland Years: 2012: 1/2 done

'no not the show.

This is our new normal now. Me, living in fear of him. we haven't had any fights since. And I haven't been destructive since. No bc apparently if I am towards him that's his response. how effed is that? he's never done that before.

Women have gone for months yrs living w/ someone they're afraid of. not that we live together. as we don't. I keep thinking this can't be the man who threatened to r*pe me. but it is. we haven't talked about it since. I looked at him and thought that the other day and it made me sad.