New clothes in Bittersweet

T pushed me to buy some new clothes. 10 lbs means a fair chunk on my body really. So I bought about 200 dollars worth of clothes from Shein. Yes made in china sweat shop clothes. So are walmart clothes. At least there is verity online. I actually fit into some normal sizes instead of their laughably plus sizes. Ill likely send over half back. But at least its a shot at some newer shirts. I do need some different pants too. Like i get sick of wearing black pants too lol. But I love these grey super wide leg pants I got and they feel SO big, But really they are just wide legged and im not used to that. I also ordered two belts to change up the tunic looks. Today all upper management was wearing white or cream. We had mindwaves again lol. I wore white, R wore cream an white, K wore cream. It was funny. We do that often. On wednesday we wear black a lot for our team meetings, but thursday management meeting is where we get hilarious. Somehow, we across 4 (shit now 6 starting this week) manage to tend to wear similar clothes, either same color pants, same shirts, tall boots, all have cardis, something. I need to loose a few more then 9 inches to fit in a good deal of what I want. Everyone keeps telling me 10 lbs and 9 inches since valentines day is GREAT progress. I want faster.
Anyway, im excited for new clothes. I found a dozen more things I want on amazon, But spending 40 on a shirt isnt exactly my thing either. I struggle with that much for nice slacks.
T and I had a long talk, and I kinda told him that I need things too. I dont always know but i need to not be led to believe things are going great and then shit all over that. He said he was bad with words and was TRYING to tell me that he meant that things have been rough for me. Not sure I believe THAT but at least we talked. I told him I need tenderness and everything to NOT be about sex. Every touch doesn’t mean sex. It just means touch, He needs to separate that. He did get a bit offended. But he seems better when I got home.
Anyway. That helped. At least I hope so…

Tonight we made keto pizza with mozzarella bread and toppings. It was pretty good, He made me a pizza pocket for lunch but the kids ate it. Ill have soup instead.
My knee is KILLING me, Its swollen and angry. I keep doing workouts and minimizing the knee effort but so much of resistance band training involves squats with the band. Like my knee cannot take much of it before im just doing the upper body portion. So instead im doing core movements with yoga but that dosent help my legs either. I like to think I have decent legs. I took a few days off and that didnt help, Nor did wearing my motorcycle boots with 3 inch heels lol. I had to move to flats. But tomorrow i wanted to wear my wide legged slacks and a white shirt so I can be the oddball out at the meeting! And for those pants I NEED heels. Im too short for them lol. And they are NOT a tall size. Im just decently short. My boss was wearing a boot with a short heel and im about 3 inches shorter then her. Im one of the tallest at work at 5 ft 4. Hilarious I know, But my receptionists are 4 ft 8 and 5 ft 1. So many people in Co are short. Maybe its the thin air up here? Im used to being the short one!

Ok I better go get ready for bed. Kids internet is about to turn off which means quiet time :)

Tomorrow will be a better day. Or I wont be able to walk from my knee. Either or. lol.
I really just need to start taking more Colligan and oh what is that vitamin.... I forget which one…