How could you love him? in It's happened, what now.

The question isn’t asked
For fear of being impolite
They think it quietly instead
They know the asking isn’t right.

How could you have loved him?
There’s nothing left worthwhile
He’s mean, he’s off, he’s bad
He’s really not your style.

You see I didn’t love him
Not the man you know
The man I fell in love with
Died some years ago.

The man I fell in love with
And the man I left behind
Are not the same in any way
Yet utterly intwined

The man I fell in love with
Was kind and strong and safe
In a time when I felt so alone
And frequently unsafe

He told me I was wanted
And beautiful and wild
He taught me all about the world
I no longer felt like a child.

I was so surprised then
The day it all turned ‘round
The first time he turned ugly
When my beau could not be found

That’s the day he began to die
The day the monster appeared
Although he did not stay too long
He’d surely be back I feared.

No, no, no! he’s gone for good,
I’ll make Him stay away
That’s the promise that I got
A hundred times that day.

And he did stick to his word
Until the day he failed
This time the monster didn’t leave
This time the monster prevailed

That day the man I loved
Died a willing death
Instead I faced a monster
With deception on his breath

I did not love the monster
though he looked so much the same
I did not love the monster
That shared his face and name

I know that they are not apart
That the monster was always there
But that’s not how it felt to me
The trickery is just unfair

He may have lost the fight
Against the monster inside
But I was strong and I fought back
And beat him on the outside

Last updated February 18, 2024