Shifted in Current Events

Thursday evening I went to see Swan Lake with Leanne. The last live show we saw was Chicago. I enjoyed the ballet. I’d never been to one. I thought it was cute to hear all of their little feet running, squeaking and tapping on the floor. Of course, you would hear that but it still managed to be a surprise.

I felt the shift within myself yesterday. My little slump is behind me now. I’ve come to accept that I am a high school dropout again. Well, just until September. I have an e-mail from the teacher asking about my absence. He will take a hint but I’ll probably reply anyway because I intend to retake his class next semester. I have a lot of time to become a mathlete while I wait. It is a chemistry credit that I need so that is my priority.

I didn’t hesitate to do things that I have been putting off yesterday. Everything I procrastinate on as well. I went over my finances, I started my taxes, I submitted my resume to a few places in the area, I fixed things around the apartment, and I ran all of my errands, etc.

Tonight I have a get-together for Angelina’s birthday. If we don’t get snowed in. We are getting a blizzard tonight. I invited Toni but I know she will say no. Miss I’m lonely. I lowkey want the plans to fall apart because I don’t want to spend money on takeout. They want Thai Food. Out of nowhere I suddenly have a problem with mushy food which is what everything is when you eat out.

Toni decided to cut back on her boxing. She has her first fight on the 18th. She got hit in the head too hard while sparring. The effect of this hit her later and it lasted for a few days. We’re 37 bruv. She showed me the footage and it didn’t look bad at all. We’re just old folk now. Boxing isn’t her career but she is there 5x a week. It’s just escapism for her. She can’t control her mind which is the root of all her problems.

We had a good talk the other day. I know it will go nowhere. I can see that already today. It was a conversation about responsibility and being a real adult. She seemed inspired but I knew it was one of those pothead moments where they fantasize about all of the things they want to do but never will because they’re brain-dead losers.

I have to bring up our taxes later. We need to discuss who is going to claim the rent. It’s supposed to be me because I have a smaller income but last year when we had that conversation she acted like it never happened and she went and did it. I thought I caught her sober enough to have that conversation last year but apparently not. She has a history of amnesia whenever we discuss money. She is already high. It was the first thing she did this morning when she woke up. I just basically need her to confirm that she is doing it.

I didn’t know what I was getting when I moved in with my roommate but I knew what I was getting when I renewed the lease with her. I am going to make an effort to not complain about her on a roommate level. Her character and our friendship are still fair game, lol.

Anyway, it’s time I go exercise.