Looking Forward in Current Events

It was nice to be back at work today after a six-day weekend. I am taking a break from my studying today. I am off tomorrow but I am back in class as well after a six-day weekend as well. I’ll study tomorrow. I’ll also be getting help from the math tutor. Then hopefully I won’t leave class stunned by how hard grade 12 physics is for me. The website I joined teaches everything for free. I want to do a crash course on everything math. I’ve never been “math intuitive” but I always wished that I was. One of my regrets is that I let a guidance counsellor talk me out of taking calculus.

John, a buddy at work, is trying to recruit me for a new full-time gig that he is considering. Its starting pay is $18. It’s a cleaning and maintenance job which I would probably enjoy. I like cleaning for fun. However, my heart is set on something else. As I wrote in my previous entry, I can afford to take risks. The young adults that are fresh out of high school are the luckiest people alive. The majority of them don’t have kids, marriages, in-laws, massive debts, mortgages, litigations, etc. They can afford to take big risks. Life hasn’t crushed their dreams yet. I share that in common with them. I don’t live with mommy and daddy, however, but that’s okay.

I want to write eBooks, maybe even some novels later, way down the road. I want to make content for the socials as well. Those will go hand in hand. The idea of putting myself out there triggers my social anxiety but I can push through it.

I’ve done this before. I’ve come up with some big project in my head of something I want to do and then I never did it. I would start it and then not follow through. I would gas everyone up and get them on board and then nothing. I want this time to be different. I’m going to keep my side quest to myself

My priority is school, of course. This time next year I will be applying for post-secondary. I don’t want to think too far ahead because I will overwhelm myself. I just want to focus on the very next step. It’s been 20 years since I graduated high school. It was my biggest fear to go back to school, my social anxiety was in control. I finally pushed through it. I just passed Applied Math. Now I’m in Physics. Next year will be a full year of chemistry and then I’m off to get a doctorate to become a naturopathic doctor. I suspect that I will be leaving my province in that pursuit but I can’t bring myself to think about it just yet.