Middle of the road in Exiled to prosebox...

I'm at a crossing point in my life. I don't like making choices, but I feel like if I stay complacent much longer I am going to wake up and be 52 and wonder where the hell the last 20 years went to.

I have this big fancy master's degree. I am working a job that just requires a high school diploma. I love my work place. They are flexible with my schedule, they leave me alone, I have great coworkers, etc. Downside, I am not making tons of money. I am surviving, but pay check to pay check.

I am still in St. Louis. I don't love this city. I don't really feel like "home" is here. I have been here for 7 years now. I have made some good friends, If I got in a car wreck I have people I could call. But they are getting older and moving on with adult lives (kids, moving to the burbs). I am still in an apartment with a roommate.

The roommate thing is hard. I've lived with Amanda for 4 years now. I hate to admit it, but I am financially tied to her now. I couldn't afford to live alone. She makes more money than me and has "spoiled me" with paying all the bills and I just give her a flat amount each month. So to move out and all of a sudden be responsible for all bills, I don't think I could do it. I really couldn't do it on my current salary.

I would also like to be closer to my family. My mom and stepdad are talking about moving to Kansas. I like Kansas. I've always had a wonderful time there. I think I would move to Kansas City, MO. But the problem is, moving is expensive.

So I am in this weird place where I am financially trapped to my roommate and not sure If I want to leave or stay.

But I just need some kinda of change. Maybe I should shave my chest. That would be different, no?