Stress much in 1st

I did go on vacation but left only a couple days after getting to MI. After I wrote that big thing in the previous entry Him responded with "I'm sorry but I love my wife. I don't think we can be friends anymore." my last message to him says "i understand and though I think you misunderstood me slightly I want you to know that if you ever need me I won't be hard to find." I knew all this would happen. I am glad it is all out of the way. If he died tomorrow I would have no regrets as far as what I could have said or done. I would have liked to remain friends but I respect his marriage and am perfectly ok with not being around. I have said my piece and made peace with it.

On another note. Until after October 21st when my mothers criminal trial will be held details of this family disaster will not be posted. However, I can't help but note that on the 2nd my mother was arrested for child abuse. This did not happen. This was someone saying what they think they saw... this is the ruining of a child. My sister needed to be taken from Joshua.. the damage she caused is what my mother was trying to correct. She corrected him in public to save another child's life. Seriously. The cops were called and Joshua is now in the custody of the state. Many trials will be had, hearings... waiting... in the meantime my mother is a wreck. She calls Joshua "My Heart" and this whole thing is being pretty rough on this family. This kinda thing should not be able to happen. She did not hurt Joshua. She doesn't abuse him. She has taken classes and learned to correct accordingly. Joshua is mildly autistic according to Doctors at Vaderbuilt with papers to prove it. The way he learns is not the same as others... sigh

I now worry about my mothers mental health.

My dad took my sister to her mental health doc today to talk about the situation because honestly we were hoping to have him back Wednesday and that this would be handled that quick. That we would not have to involve her at all. Not the case. Dad says she took it suprisingly well and mom promised to call her tonight. Mom hasn't talked to Allie since it happened.

I have vacation... work is shut down till the 18th. I came home the 7th because I was so stressed out I wasn't relaxing... and Destiny... Destiny always needs help... and I always feel that I can help her but I NEED HELP! I need a few good stiff drinks and a DD. I need to not care about anything more than how hard someone is kicking my ass in a card game.... not that my friend doesn't have tags for her car and has a suspended license.

Tonight I'm driving as the DD so my brother can hit the bottle hard and relax.. he went to court with mom on Monday. ... I went Wednesday, went to the family meeting and will be going to court again Monday... Allie has a Dr. appointment the 16th and I have an ultra sound the 17th... then back to work...

hope to find out something about the crazy amounts of bleeding going on right now.

I'm stressed, to say the least.