Humble. in Since OD is shutting down....

I am so grateful I have a running car again but I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and realize that I wish it would have broken down long ago. Years, in fact because I am certain if I would have, I wouldn’t have kept helping my brother. I have literally bent over backwards for him and all his kids and then anytime I’ve ever been in need of his help, he just refuses. I am glad that I’ve had to walk to truly know what it feels like to be on my own and I felt so angry that there was no one to call and be there for me and my daughter.

I personally didn’t mind walking except that I do have a lot of health issues and was in pain with every step but what has stuck with me is how much it affected my daughter. She was pretty worried about me and it made me very sad because I just want her to be focused on being a kid and having fun. At 5 years old, you shouldn’t have to worry about adult things and that’s the last thing I have ever wanted for her. I wish I could shield her from everything hurtful but I can’t. I’m upset that my brother didn’t care enough about HER to help me with my car. It’s not like I asked him for money or a ride, just to come see if I have a loose wire.