Current Mood in The Big, Blue House, year one.
- Feb. 5, 2023, 12:08 a.m.
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Don’t poke the bear, people.
Asperger’s, borderline, anxiety, and antisocial traits.
It’s a confection wherein I have no chill. The patience burned up decades ago. At my core there is a cornered badger, claws ground sharp over decades of dealing with bullies and backstabbers of every stripe.
Supposedly autistic people cannot be antisocial. Supposedly. Abuse one long enough, and I assure you, it’s a possibility.
Last updated February 05, 2023
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Deleted user ⋅ February 05, 2023
Maybe just think of yourself as a HUMAN instead of identifying as "autistic". Something I have had to face in my own identity is not labeling myself so extreme in my own ways.
Asenath Waite Deleted user ⋅ February 05, 2023
Tell the rest of the species to stop calling me "weird", "flighty", "cold", "stupid", etc, etc.
The diagnosis is a great relief when you've spent your whole life being called other names. It's what I am. It makes me part of a huge online community, and it gets me the SSI and SSDI so that I don't have to deal with horrible coworkers any more.
I'm human. But I'm an autistic flavor of human.
Deleted user Asenath Waite ⋅ February 05, 2023
Cheers
Asenath Waite Deleted user ⋅ February 06, 2023
Is it incorrect of me to interpret that as dismissive?
Deleted user Asenath Waite ⋅ February 06, 2023
No, you are not a person I can dismiss, because I have great respect and admiration for you. Sometimes I just say that in a light manner. If I did not like and care about you, if I felt like being rude to you, I would simply not associate I am not rude or shitty with people or dismissive of us is the last time I speak to them or deal with them I think you are a genuinely cool person, I enjoy how different we are. So in my light mannered way. Cheers.😊👍🏼🙏🏼
Sleepy-Eyed John ⋅ February 05, 2023
Song is okay. Different.
I've been trying to develop a softer heart over the years. No sense stressing yourself out. But I understand how someone can become entrenched with a feeling.
Kinda wish I had more for sharpened claws though, sometimes.
Asenath Waite Sleepy-Eyed John ⋅ February 06, 2023
It's a curse. I've snapped at strangers, which is part of why I wear headphones in public, so I can't hear people. Too much abuse, for way too long. Hypervigilance is the term.
Sleepy-Eyed John Asenath Waite ⋅ February 14, 2023
ya. I hear that. I think the U.S. in general is probably hazardous to anyone who's different and their health, especially if you're 'satanic' looking. I've barely been to the U.S., but I've seen TV.