Tired in Journal

Poor Lexi Bird was up half the night not feeling well. Fortunately it was just gas (I think) and has fallen back to her normal routine now.

I engaged in a very interesting conversation today about what goals people had for parenting. Everyone said something similar to “raise morally upright, bright people that fit into society without unnecessary difficulty”. Obviously I don’t agree, lol. When do I ever?
The discussion mostly was around what it meant to raise people in society. Now, I’ve never been fond of society. But never have I been less fond than after I was able to clarify the principles of society. Hatred of society intensifies, in other words. So to me, raising children in the shadow of a violent tyranny is.. worse than giving up. Neither do I think that my kids should necessarily oppose society. It should be up to them. My goal is to raise self actualized people who are fully capable of deciding to “fit in”, or not, according to their own values.
Idk if simple ideas are difficult to define. But it was basically shocked silence after I outlined how I disagreed, and put forward the above goal as I saw it.
Another interesting off shoot of ideas was related to one parent’s idea that his son felt the need to voice his ideas and opinions in oppositional environments. This parent thinks of this as virtuous action. But, I’m not really sure there is such a thing. Perhaps there is, since it takes courage. But it can also be foolhardy, which is not a virtue.
I’m not even sure that it matters.

It would matter immensely on a personal level. Since choice and integrity are necessary for virtue, and virtue it’s necessary for happiness. It would matter if action is taken out of free will or historical reactionary imprinting. The latter will never allow for choice, and so cannot be virtuous, and happiness will never be experienced. Anything is possible with self-knowledge. So a child may be arguing his beliefs heroically, but if he has no power to choose, then it’s not a virtuous action. Right? Lol