Car was on fire. in Since OD is shutting down....

Yeah so I went out and started the car this morning after it’s been about -35 below and I went out about 10 minutes later where I smelled an electrical fire and noticed flames underneath it! I panic of course and just kept picking up handfuls of snow and put the fire out. I don’t know what exactly was on fire but the car won’t start again and I don’t have any help here to get my daughter to school so I had to excuse her. My Mom of course wouldn’t help and my brother is at work where he probably wouldn’t have helped either. I just feel sad because my daughter started to cry when I told her I couldn’t find a ride and then she said, “I can just run” which broke me.

This whole deal where I have zero fucking help here has broken my spirit. It’s still well below zero or else I would just walk my daughter to school. I told her that we may walk tomorrow. I’m just concerned with her missing school because they can only miss so much until it becomes a serious matter.

So I cried my eyes out by myself in my room and then I asked my daughter if she wanted me to walk her to school and she of course said yes. I bundled her up really well and walked her to school. It hurt my hips and my back pretty good but I don’t want her missing school unless it’s a valid reason. I posted on Facebook looking for a ride to get her to school and people wanted $50! We live a quarter of a mile from school so I’ll just walk her there until I have wheels again. It’s just crazy how there’s no help from my family or her Dad’s family and strangers want a ridiculous amount of money to help.

I have my spine appointment on Wednesday morning so I’ll probably just walk my daughter to school and then walk to the dr. It’s pretty far from where we live but it’s just too important to miss and I don’t want to reschedule and then have to worry about how long I’d have to wait for the next appointment. The sooner I get in and see what’s wrong the sooner I’m going to get relief.

It’s just really hard having no help when it’s needed and I’m constantly living in fear everyday of ever needing help from anyone. I’m just still stuck on how I’m scooping up snow trying to put out the flames underneach my fucking car and my Mom has no regard for me, my car, or my safety.