Random thoughts from my crazy mind.. in 40 yr old guy with add trying to make it

First let me start by giving you a little back story. I am a 41 yr old guy that was finally diagnosed with what was originally called ADD or attention deficit disorder in my late 20s early 30s. Well life before was what seemed to be hell. School caused insane migraines. Partly from not being able to concentrate. And Partly from the harassment and emotional assassinations that I received daily. But after I was put on medication to help with the issue I felt like I could solve any problem or fix anything put in front of me. My brain had finally experienced peace like never before. So in exchange for random thoughts now I analyze everything and everyone like I am an FBI Criminal Profiler. It actually gets scary at times how accurate I have gotten at it. But recently it’s been on hyper drive. So I have decided to put my story here. Maybe if I express it here my struggles and pain may help someone like myself understand that they aren’t the only ones. And things can get better. But without further adue..... THE RANDOM THOUGHT… Dum dum dum dummmmmmm.... Any of you that have ever seen the bamboozled jelly bean game. It has jelly beans in it that taste like horrible stuff. Like dirt. Vomit and dirty socks and I’m sure there are more. My biggest concern is who is the unlucky soul that has the job to taste those jelly beans to make sure the taste is correct? Is that like a punishment for under production? Maybe it’s the tardy person?? I’m super curious to know how that works. Or on the other hand it could very well be the highest paid guy in the company.. He tastes 5 jelly beans a day for his job and relaxes in the executive suites in between.. 🤔 ooo wait there went a squirrel… lol with anything I post here feel free to ask questions. That is exactly what I am here for. To maybe help others like me, their spouses or partners that may not understand how our brains function some times. And anyone else that is curious. Please be patient with me. My spelling isn’t always great. And my punctuation can be atrocious at times.. but I love to help people..
And maybe sharing some of my life will do just that. None of this is intended as medical advice. Or an alternative to getting help from a professional if you feel like feelings are out of control. But if it’s just been rough and you want to compare some stories I am your guy.. much love and mental peace to everyone..